A few days ago, I promised to unveil a new project today …
One that was vulnerable.
One that scared me.
This is it.
Almost a year ago, I found myself in a kind of a rut.
I’d been recovered from an on-again, off-again eating disorder for more than a decade by then. I was healthy, but like a lot of recovered anorexics, I didn’t always love the person in the mirror.
(Maybe that’s an understatement.)
Meanwhile, I was just starting a special online course in beginner’s contemplative photography, and I was jonesing for a project to share with the class.
So I did something brave.
I made a commitment to myself: every day for forty days, I’d take one photograph of my body that I could honestly see as beautiful. Then I’d share it with my class — a small band of women who were trying to re-see the world in their own ways.
My rules were simple, even spare*: I’d shoot not with my DSLR but with my iPhone 4S, in understated black-and-white. I’d take every photo as if it would never be cropped, and I’d edit nothing.
Turns out, that project became one of the single most empowering acts of my life.
Over the next forty days, I’m going to share every one of those forty photographs on this page — something I never thought I’d be courageous enough to do.
These images represent my first tentative acts as a brand-new baby photographer, so they’re not my best work from an aesthetic perspective. I’m not apologizing for that, because I don’t really think aesthetics is the point here.
I should also tell you that most of these images are fairly PG — nothing you wouldn’t see at the Y on a Saturday afternoon.
Still … they are personal images, sometimes startlingly so.
I understand that that may bother some readers. If that’s you and you’re a regular here, it won’t offend me if you unfollow for awhile. If you like, mark your calendar to come back in a month and a half. I promise, by then I’ll probably want to post pictures of puppies and kittens and rainbows.
(Okay, not really. But you know what I mean).
As often as possible, I’ll be sharing the photographs and words exactly as they appeared for the original class. If I need to stop now and again to explain more, answer questions, or maybe just step away for a day or two, I will. Please know that it is hard for me to share these images.
But I also think it’s good for me.
My hope is that maybe it’ll be good for you, too.
If you’re with me, please know: I think you’re amazing. ❤
*If you want to read more about my aesthetic and philosophical reasons behind my choices, you might check out this post.