Tonight, I realize that something has changed between me and the guy I love.
I’m at a holiday party when I notice it: in a crowded room full of chatter and hum. I’m making my rounds — a slow circuit from one little knot of friends to the next — when I look up just briefly and catch T’s eye across the room.
He flashes me a smile.
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When I was newly married, some nine years ago, things were different.
If T and I went to a party, we’d spend most of the time arm in arm. I’d stand close to his shoulder and wait to be introduced to his friends. We moved through a crowd eternally linked.
These days, when the two of us enter a roomful of people, we almost immediately part ways, our circuits widening. Every so often, we’ll exchange glances, though…
A brief touch on the soft place at the inside of the elbow.
My arm threading under his for just a second as we meet at the middle of a room…
And then away from each other again.
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It’s funny, but if you were to watch us from afar, it might look like we’re less connected to each other than we were a decade ago, but that’s not true. If anything, it’s the opposite: I feel T with me all the time now … His thoughts in my head, even.
It’s almost as, in our younger days, we needed the bridge of our bodies to communicate.
And now we’ve managed to build something a little freer than that — gone wireless, so to speak — the soul gently expanding beyond the limits of the skin…
Does this seem like nonsense to you?
Maybe it does to me, a little bit. But I also know it’s just true…
And it’s good. ❤
ASHLEY WILSON FELLERS 
Just how it should be
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It is. 🙂
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Phenomenal! I’ll be sharing this in my social media circles. “Gone wireless”. LOVE that!
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Aw, I love that! Thank you! 🙂
Grateful, always, for your sweet presence here and your support. 🙂
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it’s good, and it’s beautiful 🙂
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Aw, thank you friend! I think so too. 🙂
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Thats beautiful! I totally know what you mean, too
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It always feels nice to be understood. Thank you, Shannon! Appreciate you. 🙂
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So beautiful! A maturing relationship built on love!
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Aw, thank you. I honestly like it this way. Secure, stable, happy, safe. 🙂
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You ask “Does this seem like nonsense to you?”
No. It makes perfect sense. Perfectly.
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🙂 somehow it seemed to me that you would understand …
Thank you! 🙂
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I love this! Expanding intimacy. A beautiful thing. ❤
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Thanks, Kyana! It really does feel like a slow enrichment into something perhaps less dramatic, but deeper. Which I love! 🙂
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Yes, this is absolutely beautiful. Thank you for putting into words what I hadn’t yet between my wife and I ❤
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^^ I love that. It takes a long time with somebody to let a healthy depth develop… One that’s not distance, just depth. :). Congratulations!
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Sounds like a healthy relationship. So happy for you, friend 🙂
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Thank you. I’m grateful too. Lately it’s hard not to be. 🙂
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