oh, Lord, leave me …
… undone.
heal me, but don’t –
(forgive me
for saying it) …
Tag: black and white
Runes …
I almost miss the magic today. It’s cold — great gusts of wind tearing through the clouds, tossing the treetops. Even in my down parka, I’m shivering. But I go out anyway. I walk down to the woods. Tramp through the brush for an hour, trying to catch a little beauty through the viewfinder. But […]
2015, in Five Favorite Posts: a Year in Review
Moment of honesty? For me, 2015 was a disorienting 365 days — full of deep heartache and astounding joy… I lost. I lost a lot. I lost relationships and social circles and beliefs I thought I was destined to keep, and yet somehow, I gained a hundred times that in new friends, new opportunities, rich community, and more […]
A Backward Glance, in Black & White …
The New Year comes in cold: the air brittle and white. Empty. And perhaps it sounds strange, but for now, I like the emptiness, and I’m in no hurry to fill it. My friends rush back and forth announcing resolutions — buying sneakers and juicers and gym memberships. And hear me: those things are beautiful, too. This […]
Good words for a new year …
Three-hundred-sixty-five days ago, I found myself pondering this little poem by E.E. Cummings… And it took me longer than I wanted to understand the words — to unclench my white-knuckled fists — but I’ll tell you: In 2015, my empty hands were filled. Oh, friends… today, I’m wishing you the courage to let go […]
The Body Electric: Day Thirty
Tonight … For now … Just this: ❤
The Body Electric: Day Twenty-Nine
We run in the dark: Just me and T, our feet slapping the wet pavement. We run through quiet streets still aglow with holiday lights. Bright orbs as big as pumpkins bob from the trees — a neighborhood tradition — and as they sway gently in the six-o’clock dark, their reflections shimmer in the puddles. And […]
The Body Electric: Day Twenty-One
Can I say something honest to you? I grew up in a world that talked a lot about God — a lot — and I’m not always comfortable with the things that world taught me about him. Tonight, though, as I walk the streets on this darkest night of the year, I stop in front of a […]
The Body Electric: Day Nineteen
Maybe it’s just me, but lately I’ve been feeling like December is just … hard. I don’t have any real emotional reason to feel that way: no family drama. No old holiday loss. If any thing, I’m happy… But I’m also exhausted. And I’m not just talking about my usual bouts with insomnia. I’m talking […]
The Body Electric: Day Eighteen
Tonight I chooseto rest– the spent neuronscracklinginto quiet hiss. No words but this: just rest. ❤
ASHLEY WILSON FELLERS 