July 13, 2014
Meditative Sunday afternoon … ❤
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{{Wondering what’s going on here?? Almost a year ago, I found myself on bad terms with the person in the mirror. So I made a commitment: every day for forty days, I’d take *one* photograph of my body that I could honestly see as beautiful. Want to follow my journey? Start here.}}
ASHLEY WILSON FELLERS 
This morning I woke up with the realisation that to see past surface ugliness, one has to look at it, really look at it.
When I see myself in a mirror, just from the shoulders up, I don’t see me; I don’t recognise what I see as the vision I have of myself in my mind. I see only ugliness, an ugliness that has to be shut out of sight.
It is really difficult to say this, but I have come to *like* myself through some really hard work in the last while… well, except for that image in the mirror, that real (magazine) ugliness that still stares back at me repulsively.
So from yesterday, actually, I am going to snap that ugliness as it is first thing in the morning, and look really hard at it until I can see past the surface.
Many, many years ago, my best friend told me that the first time she saw me she thought ‘YUK!’; that one little word burned a hole so deep that it took all possibility of loving myself with it.
However, we now know that we can create brand new pathways in the brain, pathways that reflect the *truth* of what it means to be alive…
There is one other thing that I know, and that is that a project never means anything unless one actually does it!
THANK YOU Ashley for this challenge, and especially for your courage, the courage it takes to allow yourself to be vulnerable! You rock! ❤
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Oh, friend, my heart aches for you — for the burden of carrying those feelings and perceptions around. It’s amazing, the hurt that one little word can cause…
But also, I’m excited for you, too. Because I really do believe in good things ahead on this journey. Glad you are taking it with me. ❤ YOU are brave … and yes, beautiful. 🙂
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Journeys are wonderful things, aren’t they! 🙂
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So thoughtful….
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