Tonight, at the exact moment of the Winter Solstice, I am standing out in my front yard, head craned back, staring at the sky… I’m looking for magic. The thing about the solstice is that it comes at the exact same moment for all of us — the instant when the sun crests over Stonehenge and begins the […]
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The Body Electric: Day Nineteen
Maybe it’s just me, but lately I’ve been feeling like December is just … hard. I don’t have any real emotional reason to feel that way: no family drama. No old holiday loss. If any thing, I’m happy… But I’m also exhausted. And I’m not just talking about my usual bouts with insomnia. I’m talking […]
The Body Electric: Day Eighteen
Tonight I chooseto rest– the spent neuronscracklinginto quiet hiss. No words but this: just rest. ❤
The Body Electric: Day Seventeen
Tonight, I realize that something has changed between me and the guy I love. I’m at a holiday party when I notice it: in a crowded room full of chatter and hum. I’m making my rounds — a slow circuit from one little knot of friends to the next — when I look up just […]
The Body Electric: Day Sixteen
This evening, I asked T if he would take a few simple, spontaneous photographs with me … Not all of us, of course. Just our hands: And at first, I think he felt like the whole thing was a little strange… But then this happened: Sometimes, the photos say it all. ❤
The Body Electric: Day Fifteen
The thought comes to me yesterday while I am sitting quietly in the hairdresser’s chair, listening to the wet locks fall against the mat below me: those frayed ends have been around for awhile. They’ve seen things I’d like to forget, and they’ve also stuck with me long enough to watch me build a better version of […]
The Body Electric: Day Fourteen
This evening, I stand in the kitchen and chop. And saute. And stir. And smile. There are friends coming for dinner, and that makes me happy. These days, food makes me happy, too. * There was a time in my life where food didn’t make me happy. In fact, I was downright afraid of it. […]
The Body Electric: Day Thirteen {the Dark Edition}
It occurs to me today that December is just … dark. I don’t mean that it’s emotionally dark. I mean that it’s literally dark. Because as December deepens, there’s less and less daylight for me to wander out in the woods, thinking and dreaming and breathing and shooting and writing. On days like today, the only […]
The Body Electric: Day Twelve
I find the rose almost by accident. It grows along the stairs to the backyard, struggling to bloom against the warmth of the concrete wall, right now, in the middle of December. I lean over the railing and finger its pink petals in wonder: Could this be possible? Now? The rosebush is one of the […]
The Body Electric: Day Eleven
Today, a little pre-Christmas miracle alights on our small valley — because suddenly, right smack-dab in the middle of the Christmas season, a warm wind blows in and the temperatures climb to nearly eighty degrees. I go out for a long walk, feeling strangely naked in shirtsleeves and flip-flops. I walk through neighborhoods festooned with wreaths […]
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